in pain

being in pain is like being in middle of ocean..u know thr is an end to it but right now you can see only water and nothing else..

why does it hurt?? why do we feel bad seeing our loved ones in pain..coz we feel helpless..u want to help but you not sure how..it hurts even more when you dont even know why person close to your heart is in pain..

sometims i feel its better for us to be in pain then watch helplessly your loved ones suffering..

its awfull to see some1 struggle with cancer..for a mother its painful to watch her handicap child struggle to fit in the "normal" group...

when something bad happens to us and we are suffering we indians feel its due to some wrong doing in our previous birth..but i feel its not that..we are in trouble or pain because we have to learn something..few lessons of life are learnt this way...but having your loved ones suffer is the punishment for your sins in our previous life..

i have seen many such incidents..ppl walk the wrong path and later in thier lives watch thier children suffer..

i really wish all ma loved ones stay happy all through thier lives..i dont mind me being in trouble.because i know i have the strenght to overcome it.but i cant watch my close ones in pain..i pray to god pls keep ppl around me happy..let me suffer for my faults not my loved ones....

living life simple..

why do we complicate our lives so much?? we are always tring to achive things which are almost useless..
like for example if you take myself, i so badly want to look beautifull everyday...i get so disp if i feeel someone is better looking than me..i want to wear the best of dresses and look perfect every second..why do i realise happiness through these means..i sometimes feel am so obsessed with myself..all the time i am thinking what dress to wear next,when will there be new oppurtunity to shop?? oh god its sick..wont i ever be satisfied..
i myself am doing this mistake of giving unnecessary things too much importance and laugh at others who do the same but in a different way


like i have seen people who lead thier life just to get good score at thr exams..i mean exams are so useless in life man..they dont waste a single second and sit and study things which we all wil eventually forget..instead why dont they read other books..there are so many lovely books..it can change the way we think..

and there are people who are such workaholics that they dont even have time to spend the money they have earned..so ironic na..earning money and not even be able to spend it..trying to secure a life that is so uncertain..will you be able to spend money as happily as now in your youth..people spend so many extra hours just for that extra lakh but you cant even get back a second of your life that you missed even with crores..

there are many in this life who spend thier lives drinking and weeding..they are trying to forget thier sorrows..but they don realise is that life itself is the source for happineess..not that bottle of poison..after all why do people expect things to work out easy..whats the fun in tying a shoelace or brushing your teeth?? winning a person who has broken your heart or winning in a field where you have never ventured or won is the real thrill in life..

like this each one of us waste our lives..there are so many lost moments so many unexpressed thoughts its enough to keep us busy without room for worries..win back that friend for whom you had no time..life and be a child with a baby..go n see the world..find out what diff ideas do people around us have...laugh every second..cry when you need to..but never waste time cribbing..listen to the unspoken words of your loved ones..make them feel special..listen to a beautiful song and feel each of those wonderful words n meanings...feel the wind toss your hair without givin importance 2 vanity..share what u have and feel the importance of that thing rise..do things that will make YOU proud of yourself..sit gazing at the stars and consider all your negative qualities in your life..decide how you will overcome them..but dont forget we are all here to love..slow down and you will see life is such a wonderful journey

purpose of life

what is the purpose of life?? for some its earning money for someone its respect..and yet for someone its winning..it could be getting a good job ,learning,fighting and oh so on...but what is the purpose of my life??

sometimes i feel the thing i concentrate most is impressing others..i very much like to impress people..in life i want to make as many fans of mine as possible..yet sometimes when i think seriously i feel my purpose is to make as many beautiful relations as possible..but i feel maintaining relation is tougher than rocket science..i like to keep people around me happy..but what we all forget is we have to be happy first in order to make others happy..i so much wish i could always remain happy and not let minor things like studies ,future, or fights bother me..because my aim in life is not to score good marks but to make ppl around me like me,want me..i have to stop thinking about myself to achieve that..

i think the best thing in life is when you start realising your dreams..i have made many many wonderful relations in life..for instance i have as usuasl a loving set of parents..my mom's family is a world of love for me..my mom's sisters more like my own friends at times.they have really pampered me a lot..i still feel like a child around them yet they do make me realise i am no more a child..and i have one gang of lovely cousins..full of laughter and fun..swathi is my special gift from god..i love her so much..she is just 6yrs old but i feel she is my best friend..everytime i meet her i can seee so much of love in her eyes i feel so wonderfull..its not that others don love me as much..but they don expresss as much..in this difficult phase of life when i am almost an adult n struggling to understand life i need someone like her who can give me unconditional love..when she tries to wake me up when am asleep i get so angry..later i realise she was only missing me probably..and she is soooo cuddly..i can hug and kiss her whole day and she wont stop asking for more..dheemant is my other cousin.he too is cute very sweet at heart.but he cant express love.but i have noticed he loves attention..he needs a lot of care.still a 5yr old child at heart ..and rohit is one bunch of naughtiness..i just love his innocent eyes and the way he speaks..he such a simple boy at heart.of al of us i think this fellow is the one who will stay the happiest in life..i love my grandparents too..they r so lovely..its all because of them that everyone loves our family and no1 can get a reason to point a finger at us..it amazing how none of us have taken the wrong path..

like these i have made many such relations..i love my friends too..but you know what i love my enemies too.(though i love to hate them more!!)..its our enemies who keep us grounded..its because of my enemies that i try and be good in life..because i dont want anyone to say i am worser than my enemies..someday when i become famous or if not maybe at my death bed i want all of these people near me..even my enemies..i need to tell them thanks so much for making me what i am..i am not perfect.i mean who wants to be perfect anyways..but i love the way i am..i need even more love and i want to give even more love..i promise i wont be selfish and remind myself that purpose of life is making relations..its loving and being loved..it understanding and giving...please give me a place in your life for me in every life..i want to be born again and again as human and want to experience this love and relations all over again..coz the purpose of my life is relation and i know even if i take 100 more lives we cant ever achieve perfect relations..but i dont wanna stop tryiong...

inspite of all these i still do feel so lonely at times..i need that one person with whom i can share everything..i can share lot of things with my friends or parents..but i cant share everything..i want to make that wonderful friend who is as forgiving as mom,as supportive as dad,who can give that unconditional love as swathi..who can sit and speak nonsense with me whole day like rohit..who can be as sweet as dheemanth..who will love me like my aunts and dream n pray for me that i do well in life like my grandparents..also someone who wil listen to whatever bad i have to say about people i hate without judging me only bad as anvi..i need someone who can make me laugh throughout my life and smile looking at my smile..i have so many insecurities to share so many doubts..i need someone who wil patiently tell me where i am going wrong..who wont ever get bored of me..who will spk to me even if i am angry..because my anger wont last long if thing are sorted out as soon as posible..

probably this is the purpose of my life..to find that person..but will i find that person on earth..is it god whom i am seeking..or is it my own self i am seeking..coz we ourselves are our own best friend..is that person actually within me or is that god??or is god also within us..when i make such a perfect relation ill never ask anything from god..ill keep everyone around me happy and will preach love throughout my life...

expecting in relatioships

there is onething for which i have never got any correct answer to..is it alright to expect in a relationship??
its so easy to expect from my mom..whether i get what i expect or not i dont feel very bad..but why is it so different with friends??these expectations only lead to dispointment and misunderstandings..and inspite of that if we do expect and its not fullfilled why does it lead to so much of pain??

when i can expect in one relation why cant i expect in others??
its so confusing..if we dont have any expectations of any particular person in our life then it means that person is not close to our heart..yet to maintain that person close to your heart and to not to let any sort of distance grow between us its essential that we dont expect much..and if love is all about loving the person as s/he is then why do we expect anything at all from them??then how does one expect the "right" way??
and if you reverse the question and ask me back if i am interested in realising other people' expectations i think in a way yes..i do consider them atleast until it dosent bother me..but most of the times its so difficult to understand what exactly the other person expect from us..

my biggest doubt is that is an ideal relation that which has a lot of expectations and fulfillment or that in which there is none??
this is onething that really bothers me..should i expect anything from ma friends..if no then i just dont feel close to them..
if any of you more enriched and experienced ppl have any idea please do let me know..which is the ideal way for a perfect relationship

love and nothing else.........

we all always wonder what is luv...y does it drive us crazy..y is there love...

here i try to understand love in my own words, feelings n expression..

here love to me is not just about the love between a man and a lady..but that love which exists among all of us

its a simple thought and i would appreciate if you all could come up with many more beautiful meanings to love...

who said there should be two for love
love is still sweet when you love someone in your heart al by yourself..
love is feeling but needn't be reciprocated
love is a passion but never dies
love is you still it has me in that
love moves on but never gets lost
love is coming together but never parts
love is god but dosent seem distant
love requires lot of understanding but u cant ever understand love
love is complex yet even a baby can understand love
love never changes but yet so flexible
love is desire yet so selfless
love is within me still i need it

love is not new still its so confusing
love is everything and there is love in everything
still love is just love and nothing else
just how the protoplasm holds the entire body of us together,love is that wonderful thing that holds entire earth together...

its you who fall in love yet u r someone else when u love..
i can say only one thing about love without contradicting that is everyone needs love and love is the only thing in life...
noone is unlucky in this planet coz god has given us this wonderful capacity to love and love that love...

i think i can spend an entire life just thinking about love n how it has made us all beautiful

that is one reason why i dont mind being a human forever..coz i ave found god within myself and i have found love